“If I get another chance to, I will never, no never, neglect you.” -Me to my body every time I look in the mirror.
My initial plans were to write a post about old love, but something drastic happened. Wait for it… I weighed myself Saturday morning. Yes, it was that big of a deal. After getting off that scale, I was really trying to figure out how I could build a time machine and delete every bad thing I ate over the past year…or at least the tater tots and Mai Tais from Friday night. But that’s not it y’all. The icing on the cake (might as well use a food reference) was Sunday when we tried on bridesmaid dresses. LOL, listen. My soul hurts. It really felt like my self-esteem was an old friend waving goodbye to me in that dressing room.
You know that awkward stage, where none of your clothes fit the way you’d like, but you can’t afford new ones, so you eat your feelings and gain more weight? That’s me right now.
I see a fair share of weight loss and #HealthyLifestyle pictures on Instagram, mainly from teatox and waist trainer distributors, but still. Sometimes they motivate me, but most of the time all I can really think is, “Dang, I should’ve done something sooner. I’d be that size by now.” In 2010, I tried on some jeans in Target and I felt a lot like I did when trying on those bridesmaid dresses. Weeks later, I joined Weight Watchers. During that time, Facebook was my main source of communication and Twitter was still new to me. So, social media didn’t play the main role in my inspiration.
I tried to sit down to think of all the things that have changed in my life over the years. (The list is depressing and energy draining, but I do have plans to share it with you.) I used to be a concealer wearing, lowkey beauty product addict, with legit daily and nightly routines. These days, my make-up skills are basic and so are my routines. WHEN DID I LET MYSELF GO?!?
Weight Watchers was the first method I actually tried, so I’m not claiming to be a yo-yo dieter. However, I have gone back and forth between “I want to lose weight!” and “Ok, I’ll lose it next year!” more times than I’m willing to admit. Whatever motivation I had during my first weight loss journey, needs to make its way back into my life immediately! It’s starting to feel like the weight won’t wait on me to have another a-ha moment.
At this point, I’m just looking for a few words of advice. If you’ve taken a weight loss adventure (or made any positive lifestyle changes) in the past, how did you stay patient and on track? Leave a comment or tweet me with your tips, please!